Wednesday, 11 December 2013
Living with people who makes fun and does not believe in what I can do.
Hi. I am Izzah. I am 14 years old and I am currently in my lowest point now. I use to have a happy family where I have my granddad, grandma, dad, mum, younger brother, younger sister and myself. But 3 years ago, everything just tragically changed when I found my dad cheating on my mum with an Indonesian domestic maid. I felt horrible and I began to feel a difference in myself. I told my mum about it and they got into a fight. 3 months later my dad said that there is no longer anything going on between him and my mum. So on the 24th November 2012,(the day I got my PSLE results), they got divorced. I have always waited for that moment. The moment my mum and dad stands and clapped for me when I received my results, but unfortunately it was not what every people can expect and wants. Anyways before my big result day, I have been giving bad results because to me there is no point of getting good results when my family is fighting and the sudden left of my grandmother. Life was different when she left and I was only 9 years old. But there was an inspiring teacher by the name, Mr Yeow, who has been supporting me and always say that things happened for a reason and everything will get better if we just give it a chance. He was also the person who helped me found my talent which is singing and helped me find the inner me. But everything got bad when people start insulting me and calling me names such as fat, ugly, slow,pig,huge,enormous and it brought me to my lowest point and feel like life has no more meaning when I know I am not what people want me to be. So I involved myself with self-harm such as cutting myself.I would cut myself in the bathroom and cry all the way.So I decided to go through counselling and now I have found another way to calm myself if I am feeling down and that is Singing.So now I wear a lot of bracelet so that I will not have the temptation of cutting myself again. After moving to live with my granduncle, life was quite okay till I started my secondary school life. I tried to make a good first impression but failed and got laughed at and was never taken seriously and I was sick of it.The girls were nice but not the same for the boys. They called me names and make fun of me if I tried to make a joke. They will also sometime make fat jokes about me and that got me to my lowest point again. Then as I was walking down my school corridor there was a poster about a school talent show called SEMBSTAR and I was excited about it. I decided that if I want to make a good impression might as well just show that I can sing. So on that day, I sang my heart out and I got a standing ovation from my classmates and also the whole school. But there was this teacher name, Mr Zaff, criticizing and he got booed and called names because they were proud of what I have done. I never once regret doing that. So now people dont make fun of me and I have always been respected and has been treated fairly and equally and I am very Happy about it. Life just gets better after that. I can really type out all so this is only half the story, will tell you the rest soon. Thanks!
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